Waiting To Exhale

There is it again, my heart pounding in my throat.

Feeling like it wants to run away from all the pain that it’s been dealt.

Tired of the cage that used to protect it, because now it feels like a way to imprisonment.

Bottled up emotions just waiting to be popped.

Lock my head into struggle to not focus, I’ll let it rot.

Rot all the pain, hurt, guilt that lingers in my chest.

Try not to show emotion, let know one know you’re stressed.

You are here for the world on a one way street,

why let someone in when no one can make ends meet?

I swallow back my heart, so no one can see the pain,

and in return my heart gives me an attack of my anxiety.

It’s begging to be let out. Let everyone see the red, see the blue.

Let them see the passion, the drive, your hunger and your truth.

Let them see your pain, your hurt, and how heavy it weighs in your chest. Understand that your human and accept how you feel, so you can release the waste and enter in something that is real. Stop waiting to exhale.